The one with all the promises..

Welp, I got married. The weather held out wonderfully! It was great to see family and friends and celebrate with everyone!

Our food a the wedding was not the healthiest. J was in charge of ordering it and he ordered for 100 people... we had about 60 (if you include children), so we have so much food left over. I wanted to donate it to a homeless shelter, but J's mom offered to freeze it for us. Though i'm loving the left over buffalo chicken, I'm officially over ziti and chicken parm!

So, I took a break from the diet/weight loss for the wedding- didn't want to stress. I was eating healthy (until this past week) and trying.. but things definitely got out of hand with parties, events, and leftovers. So, I decided to try to combine efforts- I've decided to try a low carb diet combined with whole eating. Low carb is really very good for PCOS (which I have), so I figured might as well give it a shot.

Now, I'm going to start this on Friday, so I have 3 days to get as much information on low carb/healthy eating as possible. I don't eat much meat and don't really want that to change too much. I can replace meals with tofu and eggs. I have my notebook and my pen.. I'm ready to learn!

Anyway, that's all I have for now. I haven't weighed myself... Friday's confession is going to be terrible.. but I'm going to be honest!!

Ok.. I've been out of work for a few days.. I should get back to it.

The one with the unnatural disaster!

I'm getting married in 3 days. I'm pretty excited to be married AND to get all this wedding stuff over with!

I'm a pretty laid back kind of girl. The kind of laid back where I go from a year to planning a wedding.. to a month. The kind of laid back where I'm wearing a bridesmaid's dress instead of a wedding dress. The kind of laid back where I'm just now starting to get groomed for the wedding (I really hate tweezing).

Luckily, I had some foresight.

It had been months since I last colored my hair. My roots were looooong. So, I decided to color my hair 1 week before the wedding. I used a color I've used many many times. So, I plop it on my head.. let it sit.. then wash it of. The following is an accurate* account of what happened:
Me: "OH MY GOD!!!!"
Jon: "What??"
M: "Come here! Now!"
J: opens the door, I'm in the shower "What's up?"
M: "MY HAIR IS GREY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
J: "What?"
M: "My hair!!! It's grey!! It is a blue grey silver! I can't believe this!!"
J: "What can I do?"
M: "Go to the store and buy me dark brown hair dye!"
J: "What?"
M: "Hair dye! Now! 2 Boxes!!"
J: "huh?"
M: "I can't believe this is happening!"
J: "Why don't you wash the color out and dry it and see how it looks"
M: "fine."

Fast forward to when my hair is dry. The roots.. blonde. The rest? White with a tint of silver. 1 week before my wedding! Even re-writing that I am filled with anxiety. Sure, I've had bad dye jobs, but when I'm blonde, it's pretty simple and straight-forward. This, was unexpected.

I was up today at 5am to try to fix it. I've blended it better, but it's still silver. Here are my options- Go brown and hope that it covers the silver and doesn't turn the color of brass.. lighten the top and make it look more blendy.. say "eff it" and just not care.

I've decided a combination of the last two. The idea that the brown could turn on me as well is scary. I will try to lighten the top and see if that does anything. If it does not.. I'm not going to worry about it. It happened, my photographer can fix it in photoshop. I'm getting married.. and in 5 days, I'll not have to worry about anything.. 'cause all I'll have is the memory and my husband.

But I'm still freaking out a little... I can't wait to go back to talking about diet and the gym!

The one with all the terrible food...

It's pretty interesting to feel the difference in your body when you eat different things.

This past weekend, I ended up throwing all food rules out of the window (but still managed to drink my lemon water every morning!) I knew it was going to happen- my bach party was Saturday and Mother's Day Sunday. But.. let's evaluate the damage, shall we? What's a confession without actually confessing anything?

Friday: This day started with the best of intentions. I ate my breakfast for lunch and went for a walk. Then... it hit me! I was HUNGRY! So I ordered a grilled cheese. When I got home, I was in one crappy mood. Some things happened that made it worse. Anthony came over and I decided to eat my mood away. Whenever I do this, it's always a conscious decision. The only time I'm an emotional eater is when I'm pissed off. It's strange.. but I recognize it.
Saturday: I ended up skipping breakfast. Lunch was ok.. left over turkey burgers. Then... dinner. We drank a bit before going out.. then our des driver came and took us to Sonic in Peabody. I ate mozzarella sticks, jalapeno poppers, and split a chili cheese tater tot order! Drinking continued. Come 10:30, I was suddenly eating General Gao's chicken.
Sunday: After drinking, i'm one of those people that like to eat a greasy/heavy meal. I ate Anthony's leftover chicken (4 pieces). Then, we had brunch at around 11:30. Eggs, sausage, french toast, fruit.. it was so good (and cooked by the wonderful hubby-to-be). Later, I took a nap, had some toast, then had half a calzone and mozzarella sticks.

Did you even see one vegetable in that list? Well, the turkey burgers had mushrooms.. and the chili had tomatoes... does that count?

So, today, I feel like instead of blood, I have lead. I started my day with an extra large Green Monster, and some oatmeal (which I've barely touched). I expect dinner to be nice and light.

So, there you have it. I went from clean, healthy eating... to diving into a diet that would make most people shudder (as well it should!)

Next week is the wedding. I don't expect to go over the deep end with eating then. My plan of action will be to start both days with lemon water and a green monster. I'll load up on salad/veggis and not drink (save for a toast or two with the new husband!) But, if I eat a plate of lasagna on Friday night, and chicken parm on Saturday.. I'll be okay with that.. because the happiness of the day will be more important than the way my body feels right now.. and I won't regret anything... this I vow. Crap! I have to write vows!!

The one where caffeine made her forget what she wrote...

Good morning! I'm not feeling very well today and I'm not entirely sure what it is. I had a chai tea which may have had too much caffeine for me. I'm kinda flying high. Then again, it could be the green monster I had today, or the chia seeds I added to it. Who knows, really.

I've been blogging my foods in another blog. It's been really fun taking pictures and talking about food! I also like keeping this blog here more about weightloss and life in general. I think eventually the two will merge, but I'm not ready for that yet.

I woke up this morning NOT ready for my day. I could have slept until noon. I don't like this feeling. I really need to start heading back to the gym in the morning. I miss the energy I had from it and need to be less sluggish in the a.m.

The wedding is 2 weeks away and the booked weekends are already starting. I have a bridal shower Saturday, then my mom has asked that she get me for the day on Sunday. I have this feeling that it's more for manual labor than fun wedding stuff, but who knows! Next weekend is supposed to be my bachelorette party.. which is looking more like Anthony and I going out to eat and then getting drunk. If we're able to get more people, then YAY! But honestly, if it's just the two of us.. that would be great, too.

Well, I should get to work. I hope everyone has a good weekend!

Dusting off the old blog...

It's been what? A week? Two? I've been crazy. We moved the date of the wedding up by, oh, a year. We'll be married a year from yesterday.. and celebrating it a year from today.

Well, nothing has gone smoothly. I have no idea what we're doing.. it's becoming bigger than expected and I'm getting zero help from Jon.

On top of that, I just got word that our JOP is not available on the day we're looking anymore. So now we have to find someone else.

My brain just exploded a little.

I'm pretty much just checking in. I haven't logged food in ages and my exercise plan leaves something to be desired. But at least I haven't gone insane.... yet.

This blog took me 3 days to write..

Turning 30 is a strange thing to think about every day. Though this blog has focused mainly on diet and exercise, it's entire purpose is to experience turning 30. Now, I have the goal to lose this weight by my 30th birthday, so it's really the only eventful thing happening until my 30th birthday.. well, that and the wedding.. but whatever.

But it's amazing how time flies. 3 months done with the year and i'm down 20 pounds. I'd like it to be more, sure, but admittedly, I've dicked around a bit. I -am- very happy about it.. and my progress. I'm terrified that I'll screw up and gain it back plus more and have a harder time in a few months, but I'm also making changes in my life that should be preventing that- like cooking eggs instead of grabbing fast food!

Last night, J and I were talking about the wedding. We got to the point where we almost decided to scrap all the plans and elope or have a small party this summer. I'm very conflicted on this. That is what I've always wanted, but with the little planning I've done, I've discovered we could have tons of fun with all of our friends and family there- and it is very important to me that my brother and his family come. On a more selfish note, I also want to lose more weight before we stand up in front of everyone.

I'm torn on the issue. I'd love to get it over with and just be married. I'm a no frills kind of gal and would love a no frills kind of day. However, nothing in our relationship has been "normal".. and it might be nice to have a "normal" wedding. I don't know. Just don't be surprised if you look here one day and the words "yeah, we decided to just get hitched.. so that happened" show up on this blog.

In other news, it's gorgeous out today! It's been nothing but rain and floods for a month week and the sun is finally coming out! This weekend is supposed to be rockstar gorgeous which excites me to no end!

Well, time to get myself back to work....
M