Green Monster RAWR!!!

I freak out about getting older. Kind of, anyway. I look forward to turning 30, but I also have this fear that life is passing me by and I'll accomplish nothing. I'll wake up tomorrow and be 90 and it'll be too late to have kids, get rich, travel, and sky dive. I'm usually pretty good about talking myself out of these fears.

Yesterday, I got home and checked my mail (as I do whenever I get home and J hasn't beat me to it). There was a lot of stuff addressed to me. You'd be amazed at how much mail you get when you get engaged. Luckily, I love mail. One piece of mail I did not love getting yesterday was my application to AARP. Yes.. THAT AARP.

I remember laughing at/with my mom when she got her AARP stuff before her time, but you know what? SHE WASN'T 28!!!!!!! I have 22 years before I'm eligible for AARP! Not that I wouldn't love the discounts. How did they figure I'd be interested? Do they knock on doors and send it out to anyone that is usually in bed by 8:30 pm? WTF?! (how many old people say that?!)

In other news, this morning I had a Green Monster. I used 2 handfuls of raw spinach (like 3 cups!), almond milk, 1/2 a banana and random fruit.



I'm going to be experimenting with this. I really can't wait to try more things!

I'm only 28...

I did not sleep well last night. I dismissed every one of my alarms the second it made a peep- not even snooze.. just off. At 5:50, my eyes opened and I flung myself out of bed. I got dressed, then begged J to let me sleep. Like a good boyfriend, he did not.

I got to the gym, sat on the stationary bike with iPod in hand, and watched Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog. When it ended, I popped off the bike drenched in sweat and 9 miles from where I started. I feel great! Still mad tired. My abs are sore (which is a feeling I love!) and my bum bum hurts for the bike.

Sometimes I really do feel older than I am. I know that 28 is still young and have all kinds of time ahead of me, but sometimes I just feel like I've wasted my entire life and there's no getting it back! When I get in these funks, I have to remind myself that in 28 years, i'll still be younger than my mother is now.. and she is active and successful. It's hard sometimes. You grow up with these dreams of where you'll be at 28- married, career, children... and end up living with your boyfriend, childless, and working as a receptionist trying to wish your day away.

But I have this- my quest to make my 30s better than my 20s. My quest to live a long and healthy life. My quest to set a goal and reach it.. to be an inspiration to myself and others. To teach my future children how to have a healthy lifestyle.. by example.

Every day, I feel more and more confident that I will reach my goal. Every day, I look forward to the next.

And I really do love working out...

M